Skelly 

Hi Skelly  your definitely not alone, so don't be so hard on yourself  what your feeling is absolutely normal,not nice but normal,it's as if you can't think of anything else ,it's constantly on your mind,waiting for biobsy results is really hard  and no one seems to understand how your feeling, apart from the people who have had to go through the waiting, for there results. 

I  on the other hand was told the same day I'd gone to  the breast clinic, to be checked ,that I did have breast cancer,I had more msmagrams didnt show it up ,but ultrasound did, yes it was devasting news,and I was on my own because of covid. But on the other hand I was told it had been caught early so that was good. I'm not brave,I was petrified, but I got through it all,lumpectomy  all lympth nodes removed as it had spread to three of them. I had a lumpectomy, which was amazing  such good surgeon  you'd never know  ,such a good job. I had 8 rounds of chemotherapy, 15 sessions of Radiotherapy. And it was not as bad as I'd anticipated, few hiccups but nothing I couldn't handle.  A year on I found another lump in the same breast,I had to wait six weeks before I got my appointment  I like you was going spare, I really was petrified as I knew if the cancer had returned, I would have to have my breast off. But luckily it wasn't the cancer returning  it was a small cyst  and I was told they just leave them alone,and I was told many woman are walking around with  very small.cysts,and they don't even know it 

So yours may just be a cyst,or I know that you  can get many disorders of the breast, so it may not turn out to be cancer. And I'm hoping it won't be,but if it is you ,will be ok the treatments and care you will be given ftom the NHS is amazing,there there for you every step of the way,I can't thank them enough.  My son said to me ,( he was diognosed with testicular cancer a few mths before I was,) mum i look.at it this way why are you worrying  ,its just making you feel ill,don't  see the point of you worrying, it won't change anything, what will be will be, and it may not even be cancer and if it is look on the positives of it you've found it , it can be treated ,it  would be  sooo much worse if you'd never found it, it  is good you did as it can be dealt with mum. And to be honest he was right,what ever way you look at it ,his words were wise  and helped me a lot. Hope all goes well ,always popping on here if you need to chat.As I'm.sure there will be others on here who reply to you too. Do let  us know how things go  will be thinking of you .X

Hi thank you so much for your lovely reply it gives me hope. Its just a waiting game now I suppose and your son is right...what is the point of worrying ? I just feel like crying all of the time and have no interest at all in my normal day to day activities at the moment. My mammogram and ultrasound found nothing but the surgeon could see and feel a pinky/purplish lump so wanted to do a biopsy. Hopefully the results will ne back on Friday so at least I know what Im dealing with.You and your son are so brave and an inspiration to me.I will of course let you know how I get on x

Hi thank you so much for your lovely reply it gives me hope. Its just a waiting game now I suppose and your son is right...what is the point of worrying ? I just feel like crying all of the time and have no interest at all in my normal day to day activities at the moment. My mammogram and ultrasound found nothing but the surgeon could see and feel a pinky/purplish lump so wanted to do a biopsy. Hopefully the results will ne back on Friday so at least I know what Im dealing with.You and your son are so brave and an inspiration to me.I will of course let you know how I get on x

God im having such a panicky day again today...just cant shake this feeling of dread and the biopsy is after finding cancer.I really feel bad speaking to my husband and children because they are so worried too and I dont want to worry them more about how I really feel so I put on a brave face.My poor dad has stage 4 liver cancer and hes having chemotherapy as we speak so I dont want to burden my mam either shes enoughon her mind with dad...its going to be a looooong week