I know how you are feeling.  I will be having a throat biospy in the coming weeks.  I was told my appt could take up to 6 week to arrive which doesnt bear thiniking about.  Every moment of the day I am lost in thought of what may lie ahead.  I feel ike I have been carved out inside... hollow  , numb and unable to communicate with others.,, people speak to me and I am not even aware,  I am so closed up inside my own head.. 

Sleeping is so hard.  I did actually download an app for mindful meditation and relaxing, which I  must admit , it did acutally distract me and send me to a better more relaxed mindset and I fell asleep to it .  Annoyingly it is only free for 28 days so looks like I may need to invest for the long time frame I know is ahead .. if my biospy takes 6 weeks and my results 2 weeks I have another 2 months of this . :neutral:

Oh my that is such a long wait. Hope you get it done sooner, it is so difficult when they find something and I feel it's the not knowing and the wait after biopsy for results is the worst, I agree you cant function or turn off no matter how much you try. I have everything crossed for you that it is quick, good news and you have a speedy recovery x 

Hi Sue

Just wondered how you are healing up ? 

Jo

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Hi jo, I'm getting there, coughed 2 big lumps of white stuff and stitches up this morning since then the pain has eased loads and soreness is considerably less than it was which is a huge relief. How are you fairing? Hope you aren't suffering too much.

sue xxx

Wow haopy to hear this Sue , progress at last .  I have lost a few more stitches and the hole in my palate is pretty grim .  Eating is a massive challange at the moment - soups , fruit shakes and ice cream but litlerally I have to eat so slowly and the tiniest amount at a time (took me 30 minutes to eat half a cup of soup lol it was stonr cold by the time finished )  . Weight has fell off me , which scares me as I am not sure if it is anxiety , lack of food or a dreaded symptom  - that said , my weight was fine until I got referred on this trek - so  i think anxiety is burning up what little I am able to eat .  
 

I managed to see my GP yesterday as i was worried with the pain and she issued me some anitbiotics and said take them if things get worse , but what the heck I am taking them now to be sure and not waiting for anything to worsen .  Also given some anxiety medication .. took some lastnight , didnt seem to do dip lol  

When do you get to see somone again ? .. i  dont think stitches and throats are comaptible given we both seem to have had issues 

Jo

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Aww bless you, you are going through it, it's absolutely awful. Your tablets for anxiety will probably take a couple of weeks to kick in I'm afraid, my GP is talking about putting my dosage up from 60mg to 100mg as I am not in the best of places either. Hopefully your antibiotics help and are you gargling with corsodyl mouth wash? That has helped my throat a lot. And I agree I don't think stitches are the best for your throat. I see my G  as p on Monday afternoon so fingers crossed she has a report of results there as I still haven't had my hospital appointment.

sending hugs

sue x

That was supposed to say GP!!! doh  

Oh , Monday cant come soon enough for you  I bet.  Yes, the doc gave me Diazapam, she said it was instant compared to normal medication , as you say, she said it would take some time to build up in my sytem  and I probably was best not prolonging anxiety any longer but only to take when really needed.  She wanted to try beta blockers but because I have a history of asthma that wasnt an option so my options were pretty limited to Diazepam.  I was expecting this tablet to take me to a Happy Place given what I read up on Diazapem , but think I am immune to happy places at the moment haha!

I have been using simple diluted rock salt and cooled boiled water to keep things calm in my mouth but this morning another stitch fell away when I was rinsing .  I take paracetemol and ibuprofen almost four hourly , stopped taking Codiene as it made me feel like crap tbh and unable to function and didnt seem to do anymore than para's etc.  

Keep me updated on your visit Monday .. you will certainly be in my thoughts.  Hopefully you are able to enjoy some proper food now you have cleared those stitches etc.. odd isnt that these are supposed to be dissolvable yet three weeks on you still had them stuck there, whereas mine cant wait to be gone.. 

Enjoy the remains of the weekend Sue .. I  really could do with a wine or a stiff whiskey :love: ️ 

Jo

It certainly can't come quick enough. I'm on duloxatine but they don't seem to be hitting the spot, I'm the same due to me being on inhalers and they will hopefully eventually help with my wrists and hands that are still painful and have reduced mobility in them since breaking them both 2 years ago, there's only certain meds you can take, I also can't take any anti inflammatory pills as they affect my bowel disease and codiene didn't help. 

Let's face it I'm falling apart at the min everything is going wrong with my body.

hope you are soon on the mend, I will keep you updated and you also have the best weekend you possibly can. 
Alan 

not heard from you for a few days hope all is well and you are getting positive news still.

hugs to you both

sue xx

Morning Ladies,

So sorry to hear you are both suffering. I was quite bouyed when Jo posted just after her biopsy but it appears the healing process is a long and very painful one. I have my needle biopsy on Wednesday but I hear that is relatively straightforward and painless and I should be in and out in an hour. If that comes back all clear I will be over the moon

Tongue biopsy is Monday afternoon so I have plenty of time to stress. I am taking note of all the tips on what to use to help recovery but I am also preparing myself mentally for the pain and discomfort after the op.

Hope you get some good news at the Docs today Sue, and Jo hope the healing process speeds up.

On a lighter note i have been trying to lose weight for ages so if that is a side effect of the biopsy then I'll take it :laugh:

Thinking of you both

Alan

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Good morning Alan, 

good luck with your needle biopsy, I didn't have one so can't confirm one way or the other if it's painful, hopefully not, also good luck on Monday, I will be thinking of you and praying for a quick recovery and positive results for you.The healing has taken a lot longer than I expected but am now getting there slowly. Thank you for your good luck wishes for today, hopefully my GP will have the report from the hospital as I still have received my appointment from them. I will keep you updated once I've been.

sue x

Hi Alan

Please dont judge by my experience - i think i am one of the unlucky folk whose body rejects stitches and this happened so quick my op site was still very much a fresh wound -its called "suture spitting"  -  i have never had sttitches before so this was not foreseeble 

I am a lot better and taking antibioctics seemed to help my wound  calm down . Now eating soggy dunked biscuits - its bliss 

Lol at diet - ironically I started a keto diet at the turn of the new year  .. not that I am badly overweight but I was struggling to get into my clothes and reluctant to buy the next size up.  Well , the keto diet is out the window now . Anxiety seems to burn up calories extremely well for me  haha - I dont recommend this kind of diet though but  clothes now fit well again .. so that saved me some pennies 

I think a tongue biopsy is not that bad , the tongue heals very very quickly .  Salt water washes highly recommended for the tongue healing but avoid mouthwash with alchohol content  ..  your down time on general food should be very minimal  

AND ... Sue all the best for today I hope you get some positiive answers from you GP (keeping everything  crossed for you) 

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Hi Alan

Please dont judge by my experience - i think i am one of the unlucky folk whose body rejects stitches and this happened so quick my op site was still very much a fresh wound -its called "suture spitting"  -  i have never had sttitches before so this was not foreseeble 

I am a lot better and taking antibioctics seemed to help my wound  calm down . Now eating soggy dunked biscuits - its bliss 

Lol at diet - ironically I started a keto diet at the turn of the new year  .. not that I am badly overweight but I was struggling to get into my clothes and reluctant to buy the next size up.  Well , the keto diet is out the window now . Anxiety seems to burn up calories extremely well for me  haha - I dont recommend this kind of diet though but  clothes now fit well again .. so that saved me some pennies 

I think a tongue biopsy is not that bad , the tongue heals very very quickly .  Salt water washes highly recommended for the tongue healing but avoid mouthwash with alchohol content  ..  your down time on general food should be very minimal  

AND ... Sue all the best for today I hope you get some positiive answers from you GP (keeping everything  crossed for you) 

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