Hi Yvey,

I am so sorry to hear about your husband and offer my sincere sympathy on your loss. You are not not  alone in the way you feel. I know that this is no consolation when you have lost your soul mate. We lost my father-in-law under similar circumstances. He died just 5 days after diagnosis. Somehow or other, when someone is ill for a while, we have some time to come to terms with an impending loss, but it is all the harder when it happens so quickly.

Do you have any family or friends who you can turn to for support? I see that our moderator, Steph, has mentioned a number of places that you can turn to for support. Please don't be afraid to avail of any of these services. Sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger about our emotions than it is to talk to our loved ones.

First anniversaries after losing someone special are especially difficult. Having Christmas thrust upon you so soon after your loss, must have felt especially difficult and lonely. It will take time to come to terms with everything that has happened. Rest assured that things will improve with time. Sadly, I cannot say how long this will take, as we all process grief differently. Try not to look too far into the future for now. Take things day by day or even hour by hour if need be.

My thoughts are with you and I am always here if you want to talk.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx