Hi everyone, 

I found a lump on the back of my neck end of August. saw GP she was very dismissive as is nothing, didn't even look at it. I insisted to be checked  

then she sent me for a blood test and ultrasound. was told 2 to 4 weeks ultrasound, not to call the hospital, they will contact me. 

5 weeks later nothing. I called the hospital, and I was told that there was a fault in the system and all the letters are processed now.

So was told that the waiting time is back to 2 to 4 weeks. Imagine my reaction. I called 2 weeks later and got a cancellation so i booked the ultrasound. 

3 weeks After the ultrasound was contacted by GP to refer me to dermatologis. They cancels my appointment and GP sent me to 2ww referral to a hospital in London. They too last week rejected my referral. First I was told that my GP forgot to send the ultrasound. Then from GP I was told that is not true. They rejected to be treated locally. What treatment??? as I don't even know what I have. On the patient, Access is suspected soft tissue sarcoma- fact track nesting. 

Now apparently I have to wait for the hospital in London to write to Gp so GP can refer me to local treatment. I booked a Private consultation as I need to know. I have or i don't have a serious condition. 

Is not free but at least someone will tell me something. This pushing around had messed up my mental health. I wonder sometimes if humanity and care is gone. Everyone had been very cold and dismissive. Whatever answer i can deal with it. But no answer is just distressing. 

The word Cancer it is scary at it is.. I only told a few work colleagues as my behavior at work had been a bit stressful. They can escuse me if i am brushed with them. But my 22 years daughter knows nothing. She has plans and i don't want her to cancel everything because of me.

 She is my only family here. 

Thank you for reading my sad story.. I am a happy person, God has a plan for all of us. So GOD BLESS YOU ALL. 

XX