Hello
really don't know what to say at this moment in time.
my dad got prostate cancer and a small lung cancer 2 yrs ago. Did the radio and chemo and has been great. Got put on some chemo tablets that where in a trail stage.
but it's only been down hill for the past 3months. Started with swollen leg blander issues. Then had a bag fitted for a short spell. Then the last 3wks or so really out breath when moving / walking.
turns out his kidneys where was passing so blood toxics built up. Now has a type in them awaiting a stent to be fitted.
he had a checkup today to be told he only has a few months left.
I can't get my head round it. He's health within his self when he's sat down. Breathing fine etc.
ive already come to terms with death anyone death really as it's something you can't stop. But it's the not knowing which is hurting me. Seeing him in a worse state than he is already. My main worry is on my mum having to see it through. Lucky am only 10min away by car. But getting all Affairs in order etc. I just don't want to come to terms with it all.
I don't know anyone close to me who has gone through it etc.
it's my mum who am worried about afterwards as she doesn't drive.
am just thinking few months could be 6months if he doesn't go down hill fast.
just recently lost our dog 5wks ago and that was bloody hard on us and wife and kids. So god knows what it's going to be like when my dad leaves us.
and during these COVID times no one can visit when he's been in the hospital. Can't even go to the doctors meetings. It's just so hard.
thank you for taking the time to read this.
