I am so sorry to hear of your mums struggles, and yours too.  I myself have terminal cancer and have now reached the stage of being on borrowed time. I sleep a lot and can't do very much. More than anything I search for peace. I have accepted my fate and find that I appreciate my family doing so too. Counselling was helpful. Perhaps you could reach the stage of acceptance too and both of you can be close and peaceful together.  You are where you are but please do think of counselling. 

Hi Jolamine, I'm so sorry to hear that. Yes sometimes we can't do anything else but laugh. It's a really difficult situation but once the health starts deteriorating it's tough. My dad has been the same over the years. Constant health problems and things constantly getting worse. I do hope your husband is managing ok. 
Yes I'm just taking my time with things, it's very easy to panic so I'm just trying to take one thing at a time and worry about my dad for now. I don't blame you Jolamine, the summers seem so short, before you know it we are back on the colder days and dark nights! I hope you are managing ok Jolamine, you take care. x

Simon

Thank you agneswa, I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you are managing the best you can. I don't know what you are doing though but I know it must be very difficult. My mum has passed now but I did have counselling and it did help thank you. My thoughts go out to you and I wish you the very best. 
Simon

Hi Agnes,

I am so sorry that you find yourself in this situation. However, I am glad to hear that both you and your family have come to terms with your situation. 

I havehad a similar experience with my own mum and have had 2 bouts of breast cancer myself. Sadly, we lost my mum to secondary breast cancer many years ago. It is never easy to reach an acceptance of your fate, but I imagine that you feel more at peace with yourself since you did. I agree with you that counselling can be a great help.

I am thinking of you and your family and I am always here if you want to talk.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hi Jolamine, how are you. I just wanted to check in and make sure you are well. How is your husband doing. I hope you had a good Christmas. I wanted to let you know my dad passed away unfortunately earlier this month. Just been trying to sort everything out, we are finally getting there. Anyway I hope all is well with you Jolamine. 
Simon x

Hi Simon,

It is good to hear from you, although I wish that it wasn't with such sad news. I am so sorry to hear of your Dad's passing and offer my sincere sympathy.  I expect that Christmas passedf in a blur for you, what with this happening. It has passed me by too, as I haven't been very well myself for the past week - I thought that I was having a stroke. Fortunately, medication has prevented that, but I am still under the GP, to try and stabilise my blood pressure. Hubby is doing well thanks.

I am glad to hear that you are managing to get everything sorted out. I expect that your sister will be a help with this, as there's always a lot to do.

We are gearing up to see the 'bells' in tonight. Whathever next year holds for us, I hope that it is better than this one.

I wish you Peace, Joy and Contentment in 2023!

Jolamine xx

Hi Jolamine, oh no I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm glad they have managed to stabilise your blood pressure. Hopefully they can get on top of it so it doesn't happen again. It sounds like you didn't really get chance to have much of a Christmas. I'm glad your husband is doing well. Many thanks for the kind words, we knew it was coming but as always it still hits you hard. Yes I never really got chance with Christmas, it has been one thing after another. Mostly just swapping things over as I'm in the house on my own now. We are getting there and my sister has been doing bits. The funeral is on the 5th Jan, it has been quite busy this tIme of year I believe. I presume it's the cold weather and covid still knocking around. Thank you so much Jolamine, I'm not doing much tonight, as you can imagine I can't really get into the spirit of things.
Thank you Jolamine, I hope you have a nice new year and 2023 gives you good health and happiness! I'm glad you are doing ok and hope your blood pressure issues get resolved. You take care Jolamine! 
Simon x

Hi Simon, 

It really doesn't matter how much you think that you are prepared, you never actually are when the time arrives. It must be so hard for you having to wait until 5th January for the funeral. 

How are you coping on your own in the house? It must feel strange when you have always had your parents there.

I'm sure that you are not in the mood for celebrating tonight, but please look after yourself and take care.

I shall be thinking of you and your sister on 5th and am always here if you want to talk.

Jolamine xx

Hi Jolamine, yes it is very strange being in the house on my own. I do forget at times that it's just me here! 2 years ago I had both parents then 1 now none so it has been quite a tough one. Yes I would rather get the funeral over with but I know you can't rush these things. It has been keeping me busy with bits so that's probably a good thing. 
Thank you so much Jolamine, I will. I think I just need some time to get used to things. I know time eases after my mum but it takes a while to get there. Thank you Jolamine, I really appreciate that. I hope you have a good night. Happy new year and best wishes to you and your husband.

Simon x