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My mum is in the last days, I feel so unable to cope

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Hi everyone

It's my first time here posting but I've read so many threads and hoping that people have some advice.

My mum has had a very short time between diagnosis and the time we were all told she has a few days to live.

She is really now becoming so unwell. She's in a hospice with days to live. I'm trying so, so hard to be grateful that I had this time with her, but I am also completely heartbroken. She's being so, so brave. And told me and my brother we are going to have to continue our lives, at the moment I can't see how I will do that. 

One moment, I feel positive and am thankful for the time that we had with her, she dedicated her whole life to raising me and my brother and for that I will be forever grateful but then at other times I'm struggling to breathe. It feels like a really bad dream that I'm desperatly trying to wake myself up from.

Seeing her in her hospital bed yesterday with us all around her with days to live at 55 feels unfair, and I'm utterly in dispair of the next coming months.

Does anyone have any tips on how to cope with this? I don't know if I'll be able to carry on. I feel angry becaise I don't feel people understand. My friends that I have told are trying to help, but whatever they say is just not enough right now. Is this normal?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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    Hi, 

    My mum passed away 3 days ago, she was 68. She was really ill during her last few weeks but we found it really important to spend as much time with her, chat to her about life in general and say anything to her that we would regret not saying if she wasn't here. There were times when no one spoke and we just held hands, looked at magazines or cuddled. Although cancer is a wicked disease, sometimes it does give you a bit of time to have some closure and sort things out. My mum was a super mum and an amazing Nanny to my children, I just made sure she knew that before she died. You will cope because that's what we do but make sure you take time for yourself, make sure you talk about your mum as much as possible and know that she'll be super proud of you. All the best in the journey ahead, I think it's going to be a bumpy one but you and I (I hope!) will get there 

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    Hi, 

    My mum passed away 3 days ago, she was 68. She was really ill during her last few weeks but we found it really important to spend as much time with her, chat to her about life in general and say anything to her that we would regret not saying if she wasn't here. There were times when no one spoke and we just held hands, looked at magazines or cuddled. Although cancer is a wicked disease, sometimes it does give you a bit of time to have some closure and sort things out. My mum was a super mum and an amazing Nanny to my children, I just made sure she knew that before she died. You will cope because that's what we do but make sure you take time for yourself, make sure you talk about your mum as much as possible and know that she'll be super proud of you. All the best in the journey ahead, I think it's going to be a bumpy one but you and I (I hope!) will get there 

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