Hi 

I am not really sure what I'm doing writing this, my dad has had colon cancer which has spread to his liver for a few months until yesterday he was told it is terminal and they are stopping any treatment  - he is in prison and obviously with Covid restrictions still in place this update I'm jusy finding this whole thing extremely difficult to navigate - I'm 20 and I have been fortunate enough that this is sadly my first experience with a close death at an adult age. 
 

The doctor recommended not to know how long he has left and I understand that completely as did he (not necessarily good for his mental health whilst he's sitting in a cell alone) however I can't help but be desperate to know just to try and have some control of the situation as my family are trying to get him either compassionate release or moved to a hospice etc. All I know is that the doctor said "not long" 

I haven't seen him since January because of the Covid restrictions and I am supposed to be seeing him next week. All I know is that he is 11 stone and needs a friend to help him put on his shoes and socks out of not having the energy  (whenever I asked him directly how he was he would say fine and that he's just a bit sore) however speaking to my wider family who he has confided in I know that he is going to be looking very different - usually a tall (6'2) strong man. 

His cancer was operable and treatable but due to Covid and treatment possibly being slightly delayed on both the hosptil and prison side of things - I'm frustrated and mad but also I know that many people have unfortunately been dealt this really *** card and worse during Covid 

the cancer is in his colon liver and spreading I believe, I know he is weak and tired with not a real appetite at all. When speaking to him on the phone he will sound great at first and by the end of a 2 minute conversation he will have seemed to have tired himself out and be slurring and exhausted 

I guess I'm just posting this on the off chance anyone is in even a slightly similar situation / knows of how long he possibly may have left ? I just want to have some control ove the situation I wouldn't ever tell him, because I'm currently spending my days trying to contact various MPs and I need to know if I have enough time to try and get him in a comfortable space.  I'm just honestly overwhelmed with the whole situation and I don't know where to start all I know that the thought of him sitting in there alone every night uncomfortable and scared is making me feel sick. 
 

any advice on how to process / talking to him about it would be appreciated 

also just needed a place to see everything written down as Matter of fact rather than emotions and events so thanks