I lost my beautiful wife of 42 years on Tuesday to metastatic cancer. Cancer return in 3 different places, liver, bones and intestine. She was given these treatments; radio to bones, hormones treatment and oral chemo tablets. Liquid and tablet morphine for pains. Metastatic cancer was confirm after scan results in March. Since then her gradually got worse, a different pain each time d in July she compliant a lot of pains in her tummy and was given cocodimol, she started to feel sick from August, eventually cant eat solid foods. At end of September she was admitted to hospital with tummy pains and tiredness, a further scan result found a blockage to get larger intestine caused by cancer cells growing. A week before my wife died, she could only eat ice poles, ice creams, custards and drink cold cans of cola. On the week she died she could eat anything. I can tell she is in pain and I feel so bad for can't doing anything to help her. Eventually my wife lost the battle on Tuesday.
I have read a few posts here and I understand your heart is breaking as I feel this way too. I found some comfort in here. I know I cried every night feeling sorry for selfish myself but I know I should be relieved my wife is in pain no more. Today I brave to register her death and face the funeral arrangements.
