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So Scared of dying

magicmaria
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Hi

 

My name is maria and I feel so scared, 18 months ago I had breast cancer I had the lump removed followed by 15 radio sessions.  In january I celebrated my 1 year free of cancer (or so I thought).  I had a bad cough for a couple of months so went to doctors to check it out, well what happened next totally destroyed me, I had an exray and they found noodles on my lungs so sent me for a scan.  The results came back that I had stage 4 bowel cancer with secondary cancer in both my liver and my lunds and my abdomen and chest lymph nodes.  I wouldnt believe it they told me it was terminal and said I would have about 1 year.  I had a stent fitted in my colon and have just started Chemo, my oncologist said this migh help to extend my life by 18 mths to 2 years.  I have my second session this week and after that they will do another scan to see if it has worked.

 

I am only 53 and dont want to die and am scared about what is going to happen to me, i cant walk now due to not being able to breath properly and dont know what to expect with the symptons to come.

 

I am sorry to go on but I was wondering if anyone out there is sadly in the same situation or knows someone who is and could maybe offer me some advice

 

love to you all maria x  

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    Oh I am so sorry., we are the same age and this is something that terrifies me, I've finished chemo and start rads next week.....

    did they say the bowel cancer is a secondary cancer? I'm praying the chemo is kind to you.....there are several people on here who are bucking the trend and I hope they pop along soon....billygoat is one and davek is another.....so is twintwo, she's a real inspiration! 

    Sending hugs and hope....xxxxx

     

     

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    so sorry to hear about you Martyn good luck with your treatment, They said the bowel was the primary but were unsure if the liver was secondary from the breast (although I had my llymph nodes removed so cant see how that could happened) they said they would do a biopsy on liver if chemo hadnt worked.  What really annoys me is if they had done a full body scan when they found the breast cancer maybe they could have caught this earlier.  I think no matter what cancer you have you should always have a full body scan to check everything.

     

    xx

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    Totally agree, I've never had a full body scan and often wondered why.....xxx

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    Hi magic so sorry you're having problems with C mine isn't as bad as yours. Mine is in prostate, lymph nodes, spine, ribs, and pelvis it was in a lung before chemo it not terminal its not curable I have to keep having cemo to keep it down. I also have a disabled wife to look after 24/7 it gets fiddly sometimes, I've had C over 3 years now specialist gave me 5 I'm still fighting it not giving up yet..Best wishes. 

    Billy 

     

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