Its 1.20am, ten hours since my mams consultant rang me to say that her multiple myeloma is aggressive and not responding to the treatment. She was diagnosed two years ago, had stem cell transplant and rounds of chemo but only got 11 months approx before it came back.
i have one sibling, im 40 years old and i am devastated. My husband is asleep beside me right now, my four children ( under ten) are asleep. Im here frozen since i got the call. My dad doesnt know only myself and my brother. Ive one friend in my lofe who lives 3 hours away and my mother was and is my best friend. I can breathe, i cant move. Her ldh is over 700 and six months is the max she will get.
Im shocked, im losing the one person i go to with my problems. I feel lile im four years old again. Im not sure i can get through this. I cant watch her fade away. She has no idea and told me that she’s terrified throughout the last two years. My heart is so broken. Im lying here and can’t even turn off the light. Im so scared
