So mum is dying - diagnosed last year with The terminator - ovarian cancer we watched whilst she battled the chemotherapy , the madness that cane with steroids , the lows , the no eating, the stillness and then we had 3 wonderful months of healthy mum. Just getting back to normal , hair growing back , energy levels up and then this ... it’s back have no idea what to do with this information it’s neber going away - she will receive more chemo now to manage the cancer but she’s not going to be here for long. I can’t bear to be without her and can’t believe I won’t have my mum anymore . I don’t think I can be here without her