My husband has fought stage 4 bowel cancer for 6 years and 9 months and we are now at the end of the fight. He has extensive liver mestases that have in the last 2 months cause severe jaundice. He had a stent put in about 6 weeks ago that didn’t work and finally 2 drains over a week but they didn’t work either. He had sepsis without any symptoms and was on antibiotics for 10 days which they then stopped as the blood test showed improvement. However last night they started him back on the 3 intravenous antibiotics again (without telling him why) and he had a most horrendous reaction. He had shivering that was so hard he chipped a tooth, couldn’t get his breath and his heart beat was sky high, he was on oxygen and gradually recovered until they gave him the same antibiotics in the morning with the same reaction. The consultant came round and no one had bothered to tell him so I had to. Anyway the upshot of all that is that the infection is being given free reign now. He is desperate to get into the hospice but we haven’t heard when that will be except that it won’t be over the weekend. The ward is horrendous, hot and noisy with no chance of rest. The nursing care is hit and miss and I have no confidence that they will care for him properly. I am an emotional wreck that I can’t make his last few days better. I just do not want him to die in that awful ward. There is no privacy and I hate people seeing me crying.