We have been told the same my heart has broke 

My mom is dying too she’s just 60! I think chemo caused it. I stay up day and night researching it’s torturing me 

I have children and a brilliant partner. My kids only have my mom (one nan) she thinks she has two years but I know it’s shorter 

I cry and research and don’t sleep it’s 3:20am and I’ve had to get of my bed to sleep in the hall because I’d be keeping my partner awake.

i really am at a loss 

it’s so distressing my mom is suffering it’s terrible I hate chemo and ops look what it’s done 

she started off with bladder cancer then had an operation to remove the tumour, then four rounds of chemo and then a scan reveals she’s got lung cancer and two years to live ... I think it’s terrible they told her that news and didn’t give her any drugs to calm her shock she’s been bleeding from vagina constant for 3days up b n down for toilet every time she tries to drink she’s so tired the pain relief is paracetamol just can’t stand this and trying to hide it from her is just destroying me

I’m devastated I feel like a *** daughter for past events. I don’t know what to do  

Hi there,

I just read you post, not sure what I can say but couldn't not reply and say I am so very sorry to read what your mum is going through, I understand it is so difficult to watch someone you love so dearly, be in pain. I did the same researching, my mum had Mylefibrosis, not so common blood cancer and it broke me to see her literally waste away and with her Alzheimers, she hadn't really spoken in the final few years. I know it's hard.

Easy for me to say but try and not stay up so late doing all the researching, not good for you and the Internet can be a dangerous place when looking for answers, not always but....Can you speak to the Doctor/Nurses about your fears and concerns? I know sometimes on the NHS, I felt nobody seemed to have the time but our local GP was very kind and did his best to help our family understand what was happening. Some people on this forum mention Macmillan Nurses, may be worth considering?

Past events, I remember screaming at my mum when I was in my late teens, I am 55 now....saying that if I ever got married she wouldnt be invited to the wedding, how awful is that but my mum loved me unconditionally, we know everything they do and did was out of that unconditional love and if you don't mind me saying, your love for your mum comes through clearly in your post.

I hope the Dr's will be able to give some comfort and help to ease your mum's condition, post again if you can and let us know you are coping as well as can be expected.

Thinking of you,

x

Hi there,

I just read you post, not sure what I can say but couldn't not reply and say I am so very sorry to read what your mum is going through, I understand it is so difficult to watch someone you love so dearly, be in pain. I did the same researching, my mum had Mylefibrosis, not so common blood cancer and it broke me to see her literally waste away and with her Alzheimers, she hadn't really spoken in the final few years. I know it's hard.

Easy for me to say but try and not stay up so late doing all the researching, not good for you and the Internet can be a dangerous place when looking for answers, not always but....Can you speak to the Doctor/Nurses about your fears and concerns? I know sometimes on the NHS, I felt nobody seemed to have the time but our local GP was very kind and did his best to help our family understand what was happening. Some people on this forum mention Macmillan Nurses, may be worth considering?

Past events, I remember screaming at my mum when I was in my late teens, I am 55 now....saying that if I ever got married she wouldnt be invited to the wedding, how awful is that but my mum loved me unconditionally, we know everything they do and did was out of that unconditional love and if you don't mind me saying, your love for your mum comes through clearly in your post.

I hope the Dr's will be able to give some comfort and help to ease your mum's condition, post again if you can and let us know you are coping as well as can be expected.

Thinking of you,

x