Thank you for the reply, Helen. I really do appreciate it. 

I have been lerking the forums for the past two weeks and find extreme comfort in the fact many people of all ages are still going through the same struggle I currently am. It seems so unique. Although I feel mostly alone in regards to my "irl" support network, these posts and the sheer amount of support that is given through this forum do tend to keep me going. 

My dad is putting on a brave face currently. He has finished his chemo completely and still hasn't lost his hair, which is weird. The doctors said it would definitely happen. His combined radiotherapy around his oesophagus also was said to minimise ability to eat solids and drink alcohol, but he is drunk every day and still eats very well. He looks completely healthy. He finishes radiotherapy on boxing day, and we have a family holiday scheduled for around Jan-Feb. 
Although he comments on dying "before next Christmas", he has made a 9 year plan. I'm really proud of him. 

"Do you have much support from family and friends?" From my family, I have a world worth of support. I only realling feel comfortable consulting my father about that, however, who has offered to pay for professional consultation if need be. From friends, in particular my boyfriend, I lack support. I don't blame them, it's a difficult thing to hear about. I think about it a lot and prefer to keep my friendship and family life separate. It makes for a nice escape once in awhile. 

This stress of university has finally gotten to me it seems. I may have to resit this term's subjects, due to obvious reasons... but what can you do?

Thank you for being interested,

Domonique

I thought I'd post our final update here, as I've seen so many posts about this cancer be left without an ending. 

On 11th March, at 6:52AM, after five days in hospital with minimal sleep, I said goodbye to my daddy Lorenzo for the last time.

His mood ended up getting better towards the end. He was very conscious, also, and our goodbyes were exchanged. 

Our journey was quick and short. I have missed him every day since and will continue to miss him forever. 

Thank you to whoever had the patience to read all of this. 

Hello Domonique,

On behalf of all the team here at Cancer Chat please accept our condolences. 

Thinking of you all at this difficult time. 

Renata
Cancer Chat moderator

Dear domonique

I am sending my love and thoughts to you and your family for the loss of your dear father.

I to lost my dear dad last September , which I thought that day would never come round, but sadly it did and my dad past away with all the family around him. He was diagnosed with suspected adenocarcinoma as they were  not sure and did receive chemo along this diagnosis ,he also had secondary. His actual diagnosis was CUP which is primary cancer unknown so it was a real unsure time. 

Take one day at. Time as it really is the only way forward and stay in contact

Take care

Thank you all for your condolences xx 

[@Duchie]‍ it seems as though our fathers were in a very similar boat in regards to what type of cancer they both had. My condolences for your loss (although I personally know that does not ease the pain). 

Life is very unforgiving and very, very cruel. I'm sure, like my dad, yours was also loved very much. It is definitely a hard time to say the least, but that's precisely what my family is currently doing... just taking it one day at a time. It's so weird that life goes on without them. The adjustments are a painful time.