In September of 2015, my father was diagnosed with stage 4 brain tumor, inoperable and with an estimated 18th months to live. Now, the time has come. My father has been put on Lorezapam and cannabanoids and everything, but nothing works. He sleeps all day. I just missed 2 days of college with the past weekend to just sit there next to him, hold his hand, and read him updates from ESPN and talk about my goals for when I get out of college. I am so scared, life feels like a shitshow right now. I lost my mother in 2011 to Huntingtons Disease, but am blessed to have an amazing adoptive mother and a family unlike any others. They are my inner support group, but I am looking for some outside support and tips and whatnot as to how to move forward. He will pass any day now and I am scared to lose him. All I want is for him to give me his hour long lectures about something dumb I did, but he no longer speaks. All I want is to play soccer with him again, but he has gone blind and lost most muscle movement. I don't know how to get though this, please help.