Thank you for your response. I feel well today, and usually do which is one of the frustrating things as you know that it is terminal. Hope you are still staying strong and three years is good and more to come?

I'm in my mid 30's and Im terminally ill as well. I'm calm and ok too, except when the symptoms start having a party which is happening a lot more lately. I've pretty much accepted my fate. I sometimes even feel excited about it, excited like what you feel when you are about to go home after long hours of hard work. Though im kinda worried about how the disease will progress.

But i've decided to tough it all out (with some help from pain killers or something) and give myself some sort of romantic struggling-type of death. I know its sounds weird (masochistic is probably the right word). I just imagined that some people like Joanne of Arc or William Wallace or the children from Hiroshima had probably endured something much worse and I'm feeling kinda guilty if I decided to ditch out when its time for me to have my share of the final struggle.

I never had the "why me syndrome". I've imagined everyone will be going to face their own fate one day, now will be a good time as any... at least for me. Many people had already left and many more will follow in their own time. Its just that, like many other people before me, my train stop has arrive... at least it gives me some sort of a heads-up. 

I don't know, maybe its because I had this feeling for a long time that I'm only here to observe. Feeling like I don't belong here to begin with. You know like when you are in a dream and you realized that you are only dreaming and you realized its time for you to wake up.

Thank you for your message. To be honest your views are very similar to mine in that it happens at some time in your life and at least I can now retire early and enjoy before departing.....hope that it can last for some time to come though!!

hi i am also terminal,i was given aprox 6mnths last nov secondary bowel with spread to liver and both lungs,like you i have good n bad days,i dont feel ill,i have no symptoms and feel like a fraud all my family my hubby n sons my sisters we only lost my mum last year to spinal cancer,i never dreamed that i would be joining her soon at 51yrs of age.i am determined to keep do what im doing and hope like lots of people on here that i can carry on the good fight and just not think to much and take one day at a time.

Hi. Thank you for your message. You seem like a fighter and that being positive and enjoying each day as much as you can, you can go on for some time yet

Will be taking Herceptin soon with some chemo and will see how it plans out too.