why oh why oh why

Thought I was over the worst of it...but still suffering when trying to eat..SCC  of the tongue..partial glossectomy...full neck disection...then radiotherapy...choking when trying to eat..and 18 months down the line...

Now diagnosed with COPD...but suspect maybe someting else..!...Awaiting chet X-Ray results..But really know in my heart that its bad....

My only thought is.......How do I tell those that have fought with me...that this time...it really is....too much...!....

And we realy should just let it go...?