Thoughts on the Dying Process

I insert my late wife's thoughts.  She died of Kidney cancer of the lymph glands on 19th January this year.  She was very positive to the end and tried hard to learn and share her experience for the benefit of others.

Please feel free to view and read and share with anyone who would benefit.  Debbie's horror was dying young and mine is living without her but her message is one of hope. xxx

  • Hi Ian

    Very well written post (made me realise I am still a lucky lady!).Am thinking of you and feeling somewhat humbled (thanks for hugs on my thread too).  I suppose every day has a memory attached to it but sometimes we are just not aware enough of it. Look after yourself. Jules xx 

  • Hi Jules,

    Hope you are well and remembering relaxing 'me-time' in your agenda?

    In this Maelstrom of a situation we find ourselves in it is often easy to forget the good bits we have during the difficult bits we focus on.  As Deb said ...  there are always more solutions than problems; just got to choose the right one and enjoy the process and memory of choosing.

    Have a great weekend.  I am out tonight, with a couple friend of mine,  to see Paul Jones concert.

    Big hug

    Ian x

  • Hi Ian

    Hope you enjoyed the Paul Jones concert at the weekend.  I tried to have some R&R (letting my back have a rest as between my fall downstairs and a lot of bookshifting at work it took its toll).  Also went out for retail therapy on Saturday and spent some of my Christmas money from hubby which was very enjoyable.  Picked up a few bits for the grandchildren in the very handy pound store and they got to play with these when they popped over on Sunday.  Mind you I think my eldest grandson enjoyed watching me do the jigsaws (happy to put in the last piece which he somehow managed to hold on to).

    Hope you looking after yourself and am sending big virtual hugs for what, I suspect, is an extra emotional period for you.  Take care.Jules xx

  • Thanks Jules,

    Yes this is a strange and transitional period for me which is both emotional and yet requiring me to assess where I am and where I am going!

    I had a good weekend, thanks, and the concert was good.  It was also nice to catch up with the friends I went with.

    Dearly hope you are/have recovered from your back problem.

    Keep smiling ... its does make you feel better even when you may have nothing to smile about!

    Ian xx

  • Morning Ian

    Glad you enjoyed a night out at the concert with friends.

    My back is improving and the bruises are fading and I cant help feeling a little shocked at how vulnerable I felt when it happened.  It certainly shook me up a bit but as usual my forum friends kept me company and helped lift my low ebb.  I was lucky not to break anything and am now smiling about how 'silly' it was to lose concentration and thus try to finish walking down the stairs two steps early.  Hubby slept through it all so my yell must be quieter than I thought!!!

    Am having a busy week at work with all staff trying to get the store back to normal after the Christmas period and will be glad to get through today and rest up tomorrow. Quiet weekend planned.Take care of yourself and sending hugs andthanks for listening. Jules xx

  • Good evening Ian,

    I am so sorry it has been over 2 weeks since I wrote on your thread.

    Thank you for your New Year wishes, that was much appreciated.

    I am glad you have been out with friends and enjoyed yourself.

    Thats what friends are for. And helping in times of need.

    I was wondering if you are continuing to be a drown rat with the dog walking.

    Have done a fair bit myself with all this lovely weather. Although my dog doesn't mind going out in bad weather if I am taking her,strange how when I suggest she goes out in the garden to be clean she takes one look at the weather and goes back to bed..!!!!!!!

    Who's the sucker????

    Your last comment to Jules made me smile. xxxx

    hugs

    Annabel. xx

  • Hi Annabel,

    It is good to hear from you .... and I understand time just flies and where does it go? and what have we done? is often lost in a flash.  I am still trying to get back to normal post Xmas.  It has seemed harder to do than normal this year ......and of course I have had all the anniversary stuff to cope with.  Deb died on the 19th so an emotional time but I am not going to let it get to me: Deb wouldn't have wanted it to and she would have been positive about the whole thing ~ very happy that we have all got through this first year so well ~ something that was on her mind and worrying her in those last days: How was I going to cope?  But I have, and I must make good the rest of my journey in life.

    Yes doggy walking is still a bit messy.  Jack doesn't really notice the weather and is always up for getting dirty if he can!!  Like a bad boy.  I have just taken him on his lead out the back and given him a cold hosing down.  It means yet another towel to wash but I feel better for it if he doesn't.

    Lots of love and kind thoughts

    Ian xx

  • Dear Ian,

    Just wanted to let you know I'm especially thinking of you and your family today.

    I read your posts and I'm moved by your words and I'm always inspired by your strength.

    Take care, I know today will be emotional.

    Love and hugs to you all, Jo xxxx

  • Morning Ian,

    Like Jo I just wanted to send love and hugs on this special day of rememberence to you.

    Annabel. xxxxx

  • Just wanted to say am keeping you in my thoughts, especially today on the anniversary of Debbie's passing.  Hugs,  Jules xxx