Just waiting

Hi not been on here for a while but some of you may know me, my husband was given the news last week leaving hospital that he had a few days left. He,s still here & fighting on I,m so very proud of his stength but we feel like we are just wiating for it to happen , how do you cope with that ???   We do take every day as it comes but its so hard, I try & not think about him not being here as I know I wouldnt be able to cope. His legs are giving in now & I can see how hard it his for him to take the way his body is failing him.  How do you prepare for it as the doctor,s say, stupid thing to say how can you ?? We have known  it was going to happen but don,t they get it you don,t want it to so go on & on hoping for more time together.  I don,t want my darling to leave me why is life so cruel ?? I wounder whats it all for anyway, why do I have to see my once strong husband turn into a weak shadow of himself ???

Gioux

  • Hi Gioux,

    There are some lovely people on this site, so I am sure you will get as much help and advice as we can all give.  I'm pleased that you made some good friends where you live now and that they are there for you.  I don't know your age range so do you have any children?  You only mention your sister and brother in law.  Do you work?   That has really been the best therapy for me because you have to get up in the morning, you have to get dressed, do your make up and look presentable otherwise I would probably have been hanging around in a nightie most of the time and not venturing out of the door!  At least that then accounts for nine hours or so of the day.  I have recently just moved so again all the packing, cleaning, moving kept me pretty busy too which again filled some of those lonely hours.  I figured out that in the last thirty or so years , it would have been our 30th on 18th December,  I have never been alone!  From when we got together, married, had my two sons I have always had my husband and the kids with me.  My youngest didn't leave home until he was 25 which was about two years ago and so coming home to an empty apartment is really strange.  For me that is one of the worst things.  I always thought that it would be great to come to a place as neat and tidy as you had left it but it truly isn't!!  I would give anything to come home and complain about a mess in the kitchen, washing up not done, the washing has not been brought in etc etc,  in other words something to grumble about.Would love to hear back from you on how you are getting on, of the good and the bad days and will do anything I can to help.Best wishes, Poppy