Hi Liam, 

I completely get your approach of wanting to unburden yourself and not wanting to take anything seriously and your posts make me and so many members of our community smile. You have some very interesting thoughts on many subjects and we love to see your personality shine through your posts and we want to be that safe space for you - to use your own words - "not to let any darkness in". So keep smiling on here and I just wanted to reassure you that this post didn't sound at all arrogant I thought on the contrary that it was very moving and we completely understand where you are coming from and the forum will always be there for you.

Rest assured too that you are not alone during this difficult time; we are here and we are listening. And I am sure you haven't offended anyone but it's more that your forum friends and all of us moderators on here care for you and we will have been concerned at times for you and hoping that you are ok. I hope you won't mind me suggesting this but it might be worth perhaps having a chat with your GP and explaining to your doctor how you have been recently physically and mentally, and if you have been drinking for example they will need to know that as it might interfere with medication or pain relief you might be taking and perhaps your doctor will also be able to discuss with you effective pain relief options if you are in a lot of pain or also give you advice and support for your mental wellbeing as what you are going through is really tough and it's even harder if you feel alone or isolated. But you shouldn't be going through any of this alone - there is support available so do talk to your GP or specialist in the first instance and we're always here too if you need to talk, offload or have a laugh.

Warmest wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator