I've just written a whole story of our journey & deleted it. The short version is my husband was diagnosed Dec 2024 with signet cell of prostate and ureta plus separate bowel cancer. He has had an iliostomy, chemo & radiotherapy & was doing brilliantly. He does loads of cycling ,numerous charity rides (London to Manchester in one day).

Over the past 6 wks he has really gone downhill. He can't cycle anymore,he has no energy. The sounds coming from his stomach/bowel are awful & with that come the bad cramps & pain. We have been back & forth to hospital concerned he had a blockage or obstruction but because he still had output they were happy with him. We are waiting now for a scan to see whats going on.

Obviously the cancer must have advanced, taking in to account his other symptoms. I'm so scared of whats ahead. He has preferred to remain ignorant of the changes that will happen to him,symptoms of his decline,medical prognosis,medication etc. His take on it is there is nothing he can do so he will just roll with it. I've found that really difficult to deal with as with a medical background, I understand more.

He has been in bed most of the day ,not like him . I see him shrinking before me, a greyness to his skin . I feel so alone. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. My daughter is amazing but I can't put this on her. My sons live in their own bubble & are pretty useless . Is my husband coming to the end ? How quickly does this go ? I am so worried, I just feel lost & alone.

If anyone has read this I thank you for taking the time. Any advice appreciated from anyone.