Hi, not sure what I want to say. I came on here a couple of months ago. It's not me who's ill yet my emotions are all over the place. It's like being on a roller coaster. My sister has lung cancer. Over the past year she has had all kinds of treatments. Tests recently revealed she now has mild heart failure and her kidneys are failing. I don't want to physically talk to anyone and when my friends ask me how she is I feel angry. It's like I have to stop myself from saying, "How do you think she is?" A well meaning, very good friend asked me how my sister was the other day and I said, "She's dying. How do you think she is." I ruminated about that response for several days then text "Sorry for being so blunt." I'm aware this is all about me and my feelings. I dread to think of how my sister is feeling as she lies in a hospital bed after a fall 'hooked up' to a drip feeding fluids into her and a catheter draining fluids out of her. I live about two hours drive away and haven't been to see her (this time) but we communicate using our phoned. My last chat on here was abit like this. It seems I come on here when I can't bear the situation. I've just read about someone who has had terminal cancer for five years. Wow. That really is something. Some people are so positive, it's uplifting.