Hello Andy, so sorry for what you are going through.  There is absolutely nothing wrong in how you are feeling........and yes, it does seem that you have had more than your fair share of suffering.  In your case, I think that you have absolutely every right to ask, "why me?"  If you need to cry, then please go ahead and cry Andy..........there is no shame in crying and it might even make you feel a bit better.  My thoughts and prayers are with you, and I wish you all the luck in the world, take care, xx

I am very sorry to hear about this Andy.  I have breast cancer and sometimes I think of others who seem to have sailed through life unscathed.  But when I actually drill down to what is actually happening in their lives there always seems to be something which has been really difficult/ challenging for them which "evens up the balance".  1 in 2 of us will have cancer in our lifetime so I try and use that to make me feel less "singled out". I hope this helps.  All the best.