My grandad given 6 months which its terrifying to say that's going buy doctors to be November. Of this year . 

After esophagus . And lung cancer . Now spread to other lung and stomach increasing pain weight loss is rapid due to not eating .  Declined treatment as I don't think he'd still be here now. 

This diagnosis has been the biggest shock and cruelest dealt to my grandfather. And our family. 

Cancer 6 months . Hang on a minute. How . 

Hes so proud but I can tell he's petrified he's more sleepy now and morphine increased for pain . 

My nan says to me how can I live without him . After a lifetime together. He literally does or did everything for her in bills house money management cars etc . 

My grandad has been robbed Jim of his hobbies his food his love his passions his everything his weight his mobility his mind and eventually his life . 

Although everything is gone upside down . He's like a closed book and don't like showing feelings or worries or wants   . Stuff upper lip . Carry on . A different generation. 

All I want to do is hug him and tell him it's gunna be ok but I know it's not he is so sad . So incredibly sad . Lost. 

I'm not ready we aren't ready and hes not ready.

He was unwell with issues before hand but this, words cannot explain the twisted hand dealt 

I leave his house and he manages to put his shades on and sit on the bench outside waving me off. 

Its in that moment where you think nothings changed But in fact everything has changed. And nothing can be done 

I can't describe how cruel and heartbreaking seeing him go through this. You think why why why why why . Over and over and over .

What's he thinking. I can only imagine if my head's blown 

Why can't it be stopped . Still. How many more precious lives . 

And what hurts me is nothing absolutely nothing more is done that's it your going to die  6 months .

This shouldn't be happening to us or anyone else 

I'm so angry