Hi everyone. 
My mum has stage 4 lung cancer which has also spread into multiple places and for the past 5-6 weeks we have been preparing to say goodbye to her, she was in the hospice for a while and we were expecting to lose her a lot sooner but she perked back up! Now she is at home for the past few days she's been sleeping, stopped drinking and using the toilet and mumbling at questions we ask her, we were told today she has a matter of a few days to a week left. 
my head is spinning.

she managed to speak to the doctor today to up her meds in her syringe driver to make her more sleepy so she doesn't know she's dying and can be at peace. She said today she can't do it no more and she wants to go now.

I am so in denial and she has bounced back so many times but I just can't believe this is happening. I keep thinking this is just another 'poorly phase' and she will be back to her normal self! 

she also appears to have some purple bruises on her legs, will this be mottling? :(

My head and heart physically hurts and I feel like I've been trampled on, I don't know what to do she is so young and I'm struggling to cope as a single parent to my little boy, trying to put on a brave face and even doing the housework has gone out of the window, I'm exhausted. 
 

How was everyone else's loved ones before they passed? As I keep thinking she's going to come back to normal :(

x