Hi sorry for the multiple posts.
my mum is end of life in hospital and I've been by her side pretty much all the time since they told me she was being taken off treatment and put onto end of life care - this happened on Tuesday this week.
now that I can see the end isn't far away I'm getting scared and I don't know if I should be here at the end. I thought I wanted to be and that would be what my Mum would want but we never spoke about this kind of stuff and now I am really frightened of being here when it happens. I feel really alone and isolated and scared. I don't have any support and I don't have anyone here with me it's just me and Mum in a side room. I feel silly being scared because it's my Mum and I adore her. But I think it's the fear of really losing it and melting down and how would I get home safely in that sort of state, being on my own and vulnerable. Im desperately trying not to think about it happening but I fear it's not going to be far off and I am getting really petrified. Please help!
