Hi [@Claire_bear_5]‍ 

I'm so sorry to read about your Mum, 

I lost my Mum 2 Months ago following a very very short battle with Pancratic Cancer & Sepsis. We had her home for her final 3 weeks after the Drs told us there was nothing that could be done, 

Although at this moment in time i'm numb, i'm angry, i'm confused and sad. I am almost some what relived that i managed to spend those precious last 3 weeks with her and let me tell you she faught right till the end, It wasnt until her final day she wasn't aware of her surroundings, people etc.

Your Mum sounds like a fighter and all i can say is hold on to that thought! Grasp that with both hands and never let that feeling go.

I gave my Mum a manicure & pedicure 4 days before she died as she always loved having her nails painted and that leaves me with a thought she is strutting her stuff and showing them off, I find that quite comforting.

I can't express or explain the pain, the thoughts and the feelings and right now i dont feel it is getting easier i do find it is getting harder - And i mentioned in another post that i find people (work) are almost avoiding me like they don't know what to say which actually frustrates me. Although i do have support from Family, Friends and my BF i do still feel so alone. My Mum was my Best Friend also, She brought me into this world and along with my Dad raised me and my brother to what we both are today. She taught me values, morals along with many many other qualities which i will pass on to my children (when i have some) I'm 33 this month and Mothers Day is actually on my Birthday that is going to be a tough one. 

Maybe reaching out here and talking to others about their feelings, coping stratages will help.

Always up for a chat :-) xx