Hi, I’m Lucey and I am 17 years old. I was diagnosed with stage 3 Hodgkin’s lymphoma in December 2022 when I was 16. From December to may I had ABVD chemotherapy which seemed to be working when I had my halfway through scan, and I was told my cancer was no longer active. In July I was told there was a little area of the cancer in my neck so in August I had 18 sessions of radiotherapy which led me into September. 
Since finishing radiotherapy I had this awful pain in my back going into my legs, the same pain if not worse than before I was diagnosed, I went into hospital with a few other symptoms a few weeks ago and my consultant requested a urgent PET scan because he thinks it’s the cancer again, and he says that I will have a more intense chemotherapy and a stem cell transplant if this is the case. I have my results for this scan tomorrow and I just feel like I know the result already, and for my consultant to say that too it’s all just playing on my mind. I don’t want to receive the bad result I don’t want it all to become real again. I am just scared and I don’t want to have to be poorly again.