Dear little birdie 

firstly I would like to say how sorry I am that you are going through this.

I lost my dad in September to a brain Tumor he was 63 with 5 grandsons aged 7-14 he fought it for three years

when we were told dads diagnosis I was so frightened, I was frightened for many reasons, i could not imagine my life without him,  After all our dads are out Rocks. I was so Angry with the world !! how can my dad be taken away so young and leave us behind.

I was fearful for the future and how will we cope watching him deteriorate and pass away.

I had two options, I could hide away and cry in my bedroom or I could do all I could to make sure I was there for my Dad and mum. I dedicated my life to my dad and enjoyed every second. It was hard but you find the strength inside. 
 

I took each day and didn't think any further than the day I was in, I couldn't mentally handle thinking ahead, I would think up terrible situations. We had some hard days but we got through it.  You will dig deep because you don't have a choice.   You will be offered help take it if you need it you won't be alone. 
 

we looked after dad at home he died in his own bed and was sharing a bed with my mum until the end as that is what they wanted.  You will be ok, it's okay to cry and scream I did lots of it.

my life now is so different without my wonderful dad but I have to be ok for my children and except that this is a new life I have to adjust. 
 

One thing I will say is he won't be in pain,  that will be managed, 

Sending you strength and I am so sorry you are feeling Sad, that feeling will never go. 
 

Xxxx

Thank you snow drop and I am very sorry to hear about your Dad- sounds like you and your mum made sure he had everything he needed xx

yes I am struggling to stay in the now- everytime I'm on my own I find I just feel overwhelmingly upset and then my mind runs away with thoughts of funerals and coping after he's gone which obviously doesn't help. 
 

Hi

I am going through the same and really struggling  

My dad has deteriorated rapidly over the past few weeks and I can't cope with it 

I'm here if you want to talk 

Leanne x

It is horrible to see isnt it Leanne? A very overwhemling feeling. 

Yes same to you - i am getting to grips with the site so i don't know if you can message someone directly but feel free to do so if you can. Sending lots of love 

x

I didn't realise Macmillan could help with things like Councillors - i may give them a call, i think my Mum could really do with some support to be honet. 

Thank you x