Hi there, 

I'm so sorry to hear you lost your dad. I know exactly how you feel, it's the most unbearable pain that you just can't get away from. The feeling of numbness is so overwhelming. I just remember having this I sense feeling that I was living someone else's life because this can't be real. My dad was a single parent and he brought up us 3 children on his own. When we lost him to lung cancer, my world fell apart. 
5 years on and here I am looking at forums to see if anyone has any advice as to how I can deal with the intense grief I still feel, because I still haven't dealt with it. My advice to you is give yourself time. Cry when need to, talk when you need to and try not to bottle things up or you'll be back here 5 years later as I am. 
You'll never get over it but you will learn to live with it. It may not feel like it right now but it will get better, I promise. Make sure you take care of yourself xxx 

Thank you for your reply , I also lost my dad to lung cancer it just all happened so quickly . He was first diognoed 2 years ago then he got the all clear begging of September he didn't feel well went to the hospital and never left the cancer had come back and was to far gone . I just go from feel nothing totally numb and I feel guilty when I feel like that my dad only had me looking after him and that's what I spent most of my life doing this is the longest Iv gone without seeing or speaking to him. 
 

im only 25 with no kids and not really any family support when I do get upset I just can't cope with it , the thought that my dad is actually gone is just so much kind of in my brain I'm thinking he's still in the hospital and this sounds so stupid because Iv had the funeral and Iv got his ashes. 
 

im also fighting to keep his flat that is kind of keeping me busy but the thought of losing that is just as painfull. 

Thank you for your reply , I also lost my dad to lung cancer it just all happened so quickly . He was first diognoed 2 years ago then he got the all clear begging of September he didn't feel well went to the hospital and never left the cancer had come back and was to far gone . I just go from feel nothing totally numb and I feel guilty when I feel like that my dad only had me looking after him and that's what I spent most of my life doing this is the longest Iv gone without seeing or speaking to him. 
 

im only 25 with no kids and not really any family support when I do get upset I just can't cope with it , the thought that my dad is actually gone is just so much kind of in my brain I'm thinking he's still in the hospital and this sounds so stupid because Iv had the funeral and Iv got his ashes. 
 

im also fighting to keep his flat that is kind of keeping me busy but the thought of losing that is just as painfull.