Saying awful things

I lost my dad on Wednesday, I thought I was doing okay but I won't go out my family and close friends are going for drinks in honour of him today I physically and mentally am not ready to but I feel like if I don't go people will think I don't care. I told my partner It should be him not my dad I didn't mean it obviously but I can't help saying horrible things I don't want anyone near me I just want to scream and shout and smash things up 

  • Hello Angeldaddy,

    I wanted to express my condolences and I'm so sorry to hear how this is affecting you. It's important not be hard on yourself and others as there's no right way of processing the loss of a parent. I hope you can talk to your partner and family about how you're feeling and that you may need space, I'm sure they'll understand. There is some information on coping here, which I hope might help in some way. You can also contact the Cruse bereavement helpline on 0808 808 1677, if you need to speak to someone.

    All the best to you,

    Moderator Anastasia