Sorry for your loss I do understand I went through the same thing with my mum and also my sister just keep strong,we never forget we just have to learn to live with it all x

Sorry for your loss, sending you a virtual hug stay strong and treasure your memories x

Debee

I'm so sorry for your loss; we lost our mum to lung cancer 2 weeks ago and yes....people lose loved ones all the time but your feelings are so valid & you should communicate that actively!!!! Your grief matters, you're the only person in the world feeling that and it's personal to you ️ 
 

Sending gentle hugs

Nikki xx 

I'm in a similar situation in that I've never gone through anything like this before but I do know that there are no "rules" when it comes to grief.....folks can empathise but they can't really give you any meaningful advice as no one will understand your feelings like you do!

I would say counselling, chatting to someone would be a great thing for you to do if you feel like it would help, you really do sound like you need a hug and a little help in understanding your feelings - there's no reason that it's too soon, I know I feel a comfort when speaking about mums last few days. 
 

This is a horrible, life changing time for you....feel how you feel but please do ask for help if you feel like you need it....you have your lovely mums legacy to live xx

Thank you so much for your kind words and advice, It makes a lot of sense too!!

My mums funeral is coming up soon so it's going to be a tough few days am just hoping I find the inner strength to stay strong, it doesn't help when your so called support have no interest in your feelings & don't check in, that's one thing I have worked out.. how fake family can be, act all bothered & interested about you in front of people & behind closed doors leave you to rot.... 

Its painful loosing the one who cared & loved me more than anyone else in the world... 

xx

Sending you as much strength as I can for the funeral - I know for me I didn't want to go! Mum hated funerals and although she had asked me to plan her funeral and I had made sure the things she had asked for were done, I just didn't want that final day to come. In the car I felt physically ill but once I was seated inside the chapel I did feel a lot calmer; I hope you find some peace in the service. 
 

I hear you Re the fake family - that's one thing I've found hard, trying to people please to keep peace but also not wanting to be around certain family members who are only sniffing around to see if they can get anything. 
 

There is so much support out there for you though - please reach out to them to help you!! You are the most important thing and your mum would want to make sure you have all the help you can get xx