My mom passed away in June 2021 from cancer and I am finding it hard to accept. I was her 24hr carer. I have so Much guilt and anger. I am finding it difficult to sleep and have been sleep deprived since dec 2020. I can not understand how everyone is getting on with life and I can't. I get myself into a state where I have panic attacks and my chest hurts. Even though i don't really believe in counselling I am willing to try but I have been referred and it will take 10 weeks or more to get a counsellor. To me this is frustrating. I have spoken to some therapist but as they can't designate 1 person to speak to me I am getting angry at having to repeat myself.
any advice on what I can do to get myself out of this state. My work are chasing me down asking when I'm coming back but how can I give them a specific timeframe.
