Hi, I’m new here but I’ve been reading through other posts. My mum was diagnosed with cancer in a lymph node in her throat January 2020, went through treatment and was given the all clean. The scar tissue from the radiotherapy had messed with her vocal cords so during a scan they found cancer in her throat again, lung, it quickly spread to another part of her chest, kidney and right eye socket. She was given the terminal diagnosis June 2021 and passed away on 19th August. It was only the two of us and now I feel lost and that I’ve lost my purpose as she was my whole life. I’m trying to remind myself that she is no longer in pain as towards the end she struggled to breathe and was completely bed ridden but sometime I think I can still hear her at home. I’m not really sure what I’m after by writing this post but thanks for reading. 
 

thank you everyone for their kind words. It was mums funeral yesterday and I feel more lost than ever. I miss her so much, I'm not sure how I am meant to go on with my life without her. She was my best friend and entire life.