I totally understand how you feel. I'm 33 and I lost my mum on the first day of lockdown 23.03.20 from secondary brain cancer. 62 seems so young!  She died horrifically and if I dwell on what she went through it's unbearable. I am the same as you... some days are easier than others. You think you're okay until something happens... a song she liked plays on the radio, mothers day, you think of something you want to say to her and remember she is no longer here, you have a baby that she will never get to meet ... and then the pain starts all over again. 

Life goes on. People stop asking if you're okay. 

But you can do this. It is suffocating and unfair but you can do this. No one said life was easy, and you will be the toughest cookie around. You will have bad days and good days. Hopefully one day, there will be more good days than bad days and the bad days will get less and less. 

I hope you're okay xx

[@LILTRUMPS]‍ 

Hello my lovely

Firstly, thank you so much for being so kind and replying to me when you're experiencing similar, I appreciate it so much. 

You're right, life does go on but right now it feels incredibly difficult. Especially when you go to big life events and you realise your mum won't be physically part of them anymore.

I'm sending lots of love to you, and thank you again

[@LILTRUMPS]‍ 

Hello my lovely

Firstly, thank you so much for being so kind and replying to me when you're experiencing similar, I appreciate it so much. 

You're right, life does go on but right now it feels incredibly difficult. Especially when you go to big life events and you realise your mum won't be physically part of them anymore.

I'm sending lots of love to you, and thank you again