I lost my beautiful mum to leukemia. She went threw hell and back. Wr did too watching her go threw hell, after my dad had a cardiac arrest a few months before. He's suffered severe brain damage. He's still in hospital. I can't come to terms with the evilness of what's happened to my wonderful parents. Only 60s. Both fought cancer twice. To see what's happened am absolutely devastated feel like my heart has been ripped out. I have four children to look after from 20 to 10. They don't seem to understand how bad i feel. They play up so much so unruly. I am so angry misrible and depressed. I can't carry on like i am. The kids dad hardly see them. There just let to me and they run rings around me. Am so unhappy i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just want to run away. Me and my ex went threw a bad separation at the same time. He'd admitted to cheating and me and lied about so much. That killed me. I really didn't think my life could get any lower. Than oh yes it really could. No family or friends have even been there for me. People run when your life's not good. Well that's been my experience my whole life..