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I miss my mum so much

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I've posted a few times on here, but a little background: my mum passed away on the 31st March 2021, 7 weeks after diagnosis from bowel cancer, she was only 55.

I miss my mum so much. That feeling of emptiness never seems to go away. I think of my mum constantly, literally all the time, it consumes my mind, to the extent I feel like I am going crazy. 
 

At the same time, I still feel the worst part of my grief is yet to come. Don't get me wrong, I do cry. But I feel like it's not as much as I would've anticipated prior to losing my mum. I feel it's the calm before the storm. I'm currently in survival mode. 
I'm petrified when it does finally hit. I won't survive. Because the pain I am feeling currently, is unbearable within itself. 
 

It's just so hard. It's been nearly 3 months. 1/4 of a year. But I'm stuck in this limbo, this pain. I can't seem to move forward. 
 

I feel like nothing will make this better. The only thing that can make this better is my mum, and sadly she will never be able to make it better. 
 

I just can't believe she's gone. How am I meant to live the rest of my life without her? I'm only in my 20's. 
 

I miss her so much. 

 

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    Hi there I know what you feel ... my mum passed away recently just after new year 2023 . She had cancer 7.5 years spread to her Bones 2.5 years she had bone cancer and other ilness. I do cry every day and remember all the things with her I use to call her every day 2-3 times a day for years while I'm in U.K. as my mum she was living in Poland so I call her Skype even I know she won't pick up , I'm still in shock as I think she went away and she will be back is hard to believe she died as I thought she will survive this phenunomia she catch as this killed her with a asthma and weak immune system she could t survive bless her she will be always in my heart and meet her again 

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    I'm so sorry to hear about your mum, losing your mum truly is the most heartbreaking thing that will ever happen to you. At the same time, it's something we're never prepared for. 
    It's still very early days for you, and still very raw. With time, the pain won't feel as intense as it does now- I promise you that. You'll remember the good times you had, how amazing your mum was and how lucky you were to have a love so pure and unconditional. But at the same time, it is okay to feel like you're suffocating, it's okay to feel like a part of you is missing- because it is missing, you are half of your mum.

    Give yourself time to feel. 
    There's always people on here that are willing to talk, and know how you're feeling- so please reach out to me whenever you want. 
     

    Sending you so much love and prayers x

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    I'm so sorry to hear about your mum, losing your mum truly is the most heartbreaking thing that will ever happen to you. At the same time, it's something we're never prepared for. 
    It's still very early days for you, and still very raw. With time, the pain won't feel as intense as it does now- I promise you that. You'll remember the good times you had, how amazing your mum was and how lucky you were to have a love so pure and unconditional. But at the same time, it is okay to feel like you're suffocating, it's okay to feel like a part of you is missing- because it is missing, you are half of your mum.

    Give yourself time to feel. 
    There's always people on here that are willing to talk, and know how you're feeling- so please reach out to me whenever you want. 
     

    Sending you so much love and prayers x

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