Hi there ...

So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... just wanted to reach out and say your not alone ... we lost our 18 year old granddaughter to acute myeloid leukaemia a few months ago... just starting her life ... or should be ... it's like a hole is left in all our hearts, that will never heal...

So hold on to one day at a time ... and I'm sure your daughter needs you so much now ... it's o.k to share tears and hugs and hold on together ...  sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie xx

Hi chrissie you always reply and you always make sense in this sad mixed up world ive lost sam at 25 my hearts ripped apart the pain is so intense .i know you have lost your grandaughter does this ever get easier  much love zoe x

Hi chrissie you always reply and you always make sense in this sad mixed up world ive lost sam at 25 my hearts ripped apart the pain is so intense .i know you have lost your grandaughter does this ever get easier  much love zoe x

Hi ...

Well I've lost so many over the years, and I could always think how they'd had a good or long life ,,, and know to honour their memory, I'd put them in my heart and as a family always bring them with us, and talk about them, esp my amazing mum ..

But Jess, was 18 ... just starting ... I would have stayed in hospital with her at times, but covid stopped that .. not even a hug was allowed .. and to see her go through 7 months of intense treatments, in my head would end in her being well ..

So this loosing a young one has hit me like a sledge hammer.... no l can't reason with it ... and I know we all have to live with that pain .. while remembering her good days ... her well days ... she never let her smile go, even the day before we lost her ... so yes, I'll honour her wonderful life and love of that life .. and in it never getting easier ... it means she's right beside us every day ...

Her little brother, who's 6, said to me, when we die, we can see and be with Jess again ...he said it quite logiically ... and he and Jess little sister 9, is getting us through each day ... so cancer can do one ... it will never hurt her again .. and we stick two fingers up to it .. we will keep her in our hearts safe now ..

So please know, they are just through a door, we can't see them, but they are right there, looking over us .. and one day, like my grandson says, well see them when it's our time ... Chrissie x x 

Butterfly kisses ..................

Don't cry for me, please don't be so sad ............hold on to the memories of the times we both had ...... .....don't dwell on dark thoughts ..... hold on tight to your wishes .. I'm sending you hugs and butterfly kisses ......

I walk beside you ..... im there all day long .....  I am right here though you think I am gone ...... you don't see me but l can see you ....... whatever the problems...... I will help you get through .......

I am the wind in your hair ......the sand in your toes .... the butterfly kisses ..... you feel on your nose ....l am with you at sunrise and in sunset ....  but you can't see me, is my one regret  ...... 

I sit right beside you when you are sad ....  as you look through photos of the times we both had ... l watch you sleeping ..... I hold you so tight ..... before I go ..... i kiss you good night  .....

Hold on to your dreams and all of your wishes .... sending you hugs and butterfly kisses ....  

Hi

That is beautiful, butterfly kisses, My daughter died of gbm July 2019, sometimes I think the pain has eased and then it comes back with a renewed force. 

xx