Hiya, 

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Mum. 
 

I lost my mum to ovarian cancer on 23rd November 21.  Very similar to you, my mum had been ill for a long time and we had many successful treatments but then she detiorated very quickly. 
 

I too felt numb, probably for a good 6 weeks after my mum passed. The tears did come granted but in general I felt next to nothing. I feel at this point 7 months on I am experiencing rational grief and coming to terms with what has happened. It doesn't get easier as such but a little bit of the brain fog clears. 
 

Absolutely everything you are feeling right now is normal. Don't push yourself to feel anything other than what is coming naturally right now. But please make sure you check in on here if we can offer any support. 
 

You are in my thoughts, 

Catherine xx 

Hi , so sorry to hear about your mum also. Such a horrible disease. I hate it. A week down the line of writing this original post  I think I was in delayed shock. I had two days of that nothing feeling then it hit me. As a family we are close so I talked to my sister which made me feel better. For now I am just riding the waves. Letting the tears fall freely when they come and taking the "good" days/hours when they come too. I have a 2 yr old that keeps me busy so that helps. 
thank you so much for your kind words. Xx

Hi , so sorry to hear about your mum also. Such a horrible disease. I hate it. A week down the line of writing this original post  I think I was in delayed shock. I had two days of that nothing feeling then it hit me. As a family we are close so I talked to my sister which made me feel better. For now I am just riding the waves. Letting the tears fall freely when they come and taking the "good" days/hours when they come too. I have a 2 yr old that keeps me busy so that helps. 
thank you so much for your kind words. Xx