Hi @Kimmyp, I'm so sorry for your loss. I think it is a moment by moment process. My mother died from stage 4 womb cancer 23rd December last year. It has been the most horrible time of my life. I lost my best friend. I also have days when the pain is just too much to bear and living life without her seems pointless. She suffered quite alot for the whole of 2020 and was in a major amount of pain that left her immobile and couldn't seem to be controlled with pain medication. Im haunted with flashbacks of her suffering and finding her passed. At the same time I also feel quite numb to everything else going on in the world, the parallel feelings are quite exhausting to experience. You aren't alone in the way you feel at all. 

Hi @Kimmyp, I'm so sorry for your loss. I think it is a moment by moment process. My mother died from stage 4 womb cancer 23rd December last year. It has been the most horrible time of my life. I lost my best friend. I also have days when the pain is just too much to bear and living life without her seems pointless. She suffered quite alot for the whole of 2020 and was in a major amount of pain that left her immobile and couldn't seem to be controlled with pain medication. Im haunted with flashbacks of her suffering and finding her passed. At the same time I also feel quite numb to everything else going on in the world, the parallel feelings are quite exhausting to experience. You aren't alone in the way you feel at all. 

Hi Chrissyo

sorry for the late reply I really sorry to here this I totally understand the numb and exhausting feeling feels it like we walk around in a bubble my mum just been diagnosed with breast cancer to but she able to be treated for it so fingers crossed she be ok but here if u ever want a chat xx