Hey [@Danny101]‍  i might not be much help but felt like I needed to comment and tell you that I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, mum and best friend, that must have been very hard for you, you are so brave. This forum has helped me so much I hope it helps you too. Grieving is different for everybody, some grieve longer than others, and there is nothing wrong with that, there is no right or wrong way to grieve. I am glad you have your wife and children to support you, have you spoken to your gp about some therapy? I am not in the same position you are in, but I recently lost my mum to cancer 6weeks ago, and I have been feeling exactly like you have, I kind of wanted to block out what happened to mum and didn't want to accept her loss. I have now had two therapy sessions and they have helped me massively. All we did was talk and I felt like I could actually breathe afterwards, it was a relief to have that weight off my shoulders. Maybe therapy could help you? I also didn't want to socialise and speak to my friends, but I eventually did open up to them and talk about my mum, and I've realised that they are also great support. Maybe your friends could help you too. I have a fantastic husband and 2 boys aswell, but I find it difficult to talk to them, I found it easier speaking with a stranger more in depth. Everyone has there own preferences, it's just about finding what's right for you, so maybe try talking with different people to see what suits you. I am sending you a huge hug and wish you well.

take care

Hi [@Asmit88]‍ 

Thank you for your kind words of support, Im really sorry to hear about the lose of your mum only 6 weeks ago, it must be all  be very sad for you and your family especially with it not being too long ago as well, death is certainly hard on the soul for anyone. Thank you for your advise the therapy was certainly something I had thought about but sort of dismissed it as I couldnt see how it would help as all I wanted was them back which I knew was never going to happen, so genrally thought its something I just needed to manage. But with you mentioning how its helping yourself speak to someone totally indepantant of the family and friends you have around you its something I think I will try as it may just be something that helps even if only a little. Thank you for listenting to my grieavance and replying with support its very kind and helpful of you. Wishing you all the best for the future and of cause a big hug back too. Take care.

Hi [@Asmit88]‍ 

Thank you for your kind words of support, Im really sorry to hear about the lose of your mum only 6 weeks ago, it must be all  be very sad for you and your family especially with it not being too long ago as well, death is certainly hard on the soul for anyone. Thank you for your advise the therapy was certainly something I had thought about but sort of dismissed it as I couldnt see how it would help as all I wanted was them back which I knew was never going to happen, so genrally thought its something I just needed to manage. But with you mentioning how its helping yourself speak to someone totally indepantant of the family and friends you have around you its something I think I will try as it may just be something that helps even if only a little. Thank you for listenting to my grieavance and replying with support its very kind and helpful of you. Wishing you all the best for the future and of cause a big hug back too. Take care.