Hey Mils,

I'm so sorry about your mum. I have lost a parent and very close family members to cancer. I know only too well of the guilt you're speaking - but if anything you being able to carry on with life Is honouring your mum. She would love nothing more than you to get through this.

It does get easier, your grief will always be there but you really do learn how to cope with it. Find your own wee ways of speaking to her. 
Maybe a diary that you write things you'd have like to have told her or a jar where you put in wee notes. anything you can to get you through the day. There is no right or wrong way. But know that whatever you do your mum would be proud of you.

all the best xxx

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mum four months ago and I questioned my grieving at the time but now looking back I know there is no right or wrong way. My coping mechnism was to carry on and it is only now that it has really hit me. It comes completely out the blue and will build up over a few days until I break down. 
I have found going to visit where my mums ashes are has really helped- it's like a release as I feel close to her again. I do still get angry how some people just carry on and seem to 'forget' her but I know deep down that's not the case. 
take care of yourself and do whatever you feel right. X

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your mum I'm sending hugs, I really am hoping it gets easier with time I just want to be near her and speak to her.

im keeping a diary now of all the things I would have chatted to her about had we been face to face or on the phone.

Take care and I'm here if you need to chat xx