I lost my mum in December 2019 to a very short battle to overian cancer, she was diagnosed in mid September, and after a very painful few months she died suddenly just after her first chemo the tumour grew so big that it just crushed all her organs and gave her a clot on her lung, she was extremely poorly and when there was nothing more they could do she was dying over 7 days, the day I knew it  took a turn for the worst my whole world just came crashing down and I cried for what felt like hours. After watching her die I just lost my self since she's been gone I've not felt my self and some days it feel so raw that it feels like its happened all over again, I know it's not right and sorry if I upset people but I wish I could be with her, I just miss her so much we were always so close she was the one I would always talk to and tell everything to, she was such a positive person and she lost her mum to cancer when she was 25, and although she got upset every now and then she loved life and loved her family I just don't know how she coped, maybe she was just stronger than I am. I'm not sure what the point of this post is, but I just feel so low with out my mum. I was 36 when my mum passed and I just don't feel ready to be motherless I feel so jealous when I see people my mums age still with thier mums. Life just seems so unfair sometimes. Thanks for reading.