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Am I being selfish?

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Hello everyone, I was after some advice. So today marks 9 weeks since mum passed and I'm finding it difficult to move forward. All I want to do is cry and question why did you have to die, I find it so unfair I feel robbed. My mum was 65 when she passed, I am very lucky I got to be with her right to the end.

 I'm finding being with the in-laws difficult, I do not want to be round them, I find it a reminder of what I had as my parents were always together. I feel very bitter that my mum has gone, it is heartbreaking. I've not heard off  them either, I honestly thought they'd text me to see how I'm doing but nothing. Sorry if i sound nasty, I just feel alone. thanks FJ

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    Hi FJ,

    I was in a similar situation to you this time last year. I was 36, lost my Mum who was 62 (pancreatic cancer) and felt very alone. Going through a difficult loss, you certainly know who is there for you and who isn't. To me, it still feels like I lost my Mum yesterday. You will have ups and downs and unfortunately there's no time scale for grief. You are entitled to feel the way you do, and it's an important part of healing.

    I spoke to a bereavement councillor which really helped me. I don't think they see people until 3 months have passed, but if you think it may help you, you could try it. It helped to have someone to talk to who wasnt family or friends and I could be honest and open about how I was feeling.

    I was diagnosed with breast cancer last year and have just finished chemotherapy. I really miss my Mum and wish she was here as I know her positivity would boost me on my down days, but in spirit I know she's always with me.

    Take care,

    Rach x

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    Hi FJ,

    I was in a similar situation to you this time last year. I was 36, lost my Mum who was 62 (pancreatic cancer) and felt very alone. Going through a difficult loss, you certainly know who is there for you and who isn't. To me, it still feels like I lost my Mum yesterday. You will have ups and downs and unfortunately there's no time scale for grief. You are entitled to feel the way you do, and it's an important part of healing.

    I spoke to a bereavement councillor which really helped me. I don't think they see people until 3 months have passed, but if you think it may help you, you could try it. It helped to have someone to talk to who wasnt family or friends and I could be honest and open about how I was feeling.

    I was diagnosed with breast cancer last year and have just finished chemotherapy. I really miss my Mum and wish she was here as I know her positivity would boost me on my down days, but in spirit I know she's always with me.

    Take care,

    Rach x

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