Hi John, 

I also read that you are waiting for a biopsy which is all extra stress for you as if things aren't bad enough. I wish you all the best and you get the all clear. I know ive found keeping busy as helped me, i work part time but when at home I set about painting house and going walks. Alot harder in lockdown to mix with people so very lonely. Have you retired or still working? I bet having your grandson live with you is lovely company for you and keeps you going.

Always here to chat  or DM me anytime. Ive made a few friends on here it as helped me alot. 

Take care speak soon.

Debbie x

Hi, 

It will be a year on 22nd June for me. I still cant beleive hes gone and feel like hes going to walk back in So strange. We buried my eldest sister yesterday she died of cancer too, its a cruel disease and takes people far too young. My husband battled oesophagus cancer for year before he died. He was fit and healthy,  worked as a builder and carried on working till starting Chemo which in its self was dreadful made him feel so ill. He was 57. Your poor partner was only 40 thats so sad. Lifes so cruel. Im too dreading the year anniversary coming up and all the milestones we have to get through its dreadful. People say to me your so strong but what option have we got other than to carry on. Its so final and the thought of not seeing them again does tear you apart. I still feel like running off its horrific. 

Im always here to chat, DM me anytime so we can chat private.

take care 

Debbie x

Hi Debbie,

Yes after going to hospital to urology to have a camara to show inside my bowel

2 months ago i was called back for another view of my bowel and the same red marks

are still there, so consultant told me he wants to do a biopsy in 4 weeks, so until its done

i have no idea what the out come will be.

i took early retirement do to ripping my tendons and ligaments in my shoulders and had

to have operations on both but they could only do 1 at the time as it takes upto 18 months

for each shoulder to heal so i had to leave my job as they held it open for a year but no longer

which is understandable, i worked as a drayman for carlsburg uk.

Yes its really nice having my grandson here but when he is at school thats when i feel lonely

but when the better weather comes im going to refurb my 2 bathrooms and 2 of the bedrooms

I would like staying in touch what does DM mean i always thought it was PM like facebook for

private messageing, we live and learn  :-) 

Many thanks John 

My wife was told she had aggressive pancreatic cancer in january last year and within 9 months she passed away, 10th November at home, It hit us both hard but over the few months we had together we planned everything from the funeral to her telling me not to alone and live my life,

she was a hard worker she worked in a hospital for 11 years then we moved to enjoy are lives and travel which we did but then we become special guardiens to our grandson due to his mother being an alcoholic and drug user so our son asked us to get guardienship as he said he was not able to look after him on his own we agreed and now grandson and his dad see each other and have a good life.

No my partner was not 40 we was married for nearly 42 years,we married at 18 we knew each other from teenagers but her father did not allow me to take her out until she was 16,

I brought a 6 people plot to bury her askes and am awaiting her headstone to be done so i can feel at peace knowing i had done all we arranged and agreed on.

i have friends calling asking if i need anything and my 2 kids come and see me but they both have partners and there lives to live, i will DM your thanks i so nice to chat to someone who has gone thought such sad times the same as me, it like part of a weight lifted off me.

Chat soon 

John  

Sent you a DM/ PM that was funny made me laugh. Ill reply to you on that 

Will work out were i need to go to read the DM/PM  :-) 

Good Afternoon.  I have read your message and thought I would share with you my loss. I lost my husband of 54 years almost 7 months ago.  We had no idea he had a rare form of cancer as there were absolutely no symptoms.   However from being diagnosed to my husband leaving me took only 5 weeks.  I have still not been able to come to terms with how he left me so quickly.  He was my life, my best friend and now I feel I am lost and alone for the first time in my life.  Our story was far from being over we loved each other so much.  I really do feel your pain but you are not alone.  I will not say try to be strong or that you must go on with our life as these words mean absolutely nothing when you lose the love of your life, however I am sending you a hug xxx

Thank you for your kind words and sorry for your lose i take each day as it comes but i find nights hard to deal with when on my own if you wish to chat more your more than welcome to chat to me.

take care chat soon John