Hi Jai

i am so sorry to hear of your sad loss. Nothing ever prepares you for losing your mum. I lost mine suddenly with no warning last Year.  I replay her last day in great detail every single day and still can't fbelieve she isn't here.  I was her Carer for the last4 years but her companion after my father died  30 years ago.  We were the best of friends. We spoke every day, twice or three times a day. We spent holidays together, long eeekends, family occasions EVERYTHING we did together. Now there  is a void but I promise you it does get more bearable. I miss her from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep. The pain lives with me all the time but recently I have been able to look at her picture and talk to her like I would normally. I tell her everything I would if she was here and sometimes I hear her whisper a response or I imagine how she would laugh at hearing what I have to tell her. It is strangely comforting.  Your loss is very recent so you have so much grieving still to do. Give yourself permission to do that but also know that your mum would honestly want you to have a good life and be happy. I tell myself this every day and I try to live how she would want me to - it's hard and I hope in time her memories will bring me joy.

I wish you so much strength to bear this loss. Trust your love for mum and hers for you and know that this will get better,

How are you? Thank you so much for replying.. I m glad it gets more bearable as I cannot imagine life without her.

Nightime is awful as I d normally ring her so I don t sleep well.  Thank you for your advice and I will try to live everyday as she d want me too. 

How are you? Thank you so much for replying.. I m glad it gets more bearable as I cannot imagine life without her.

Nightime is awful as I d normally ring her so I don t sleep well.  Thank you for your advice and I will try to live everyday as she d want me too.