Hello mate I'm so sorry for your loss it's horrible cancer I lost my wife to breast cancer the 22nd of December last year she left me a nine-year-old and a two-year-old to look after it's tough I understand what you mean by feeling empty i'm the same i'm here if you fancy a chat

Hi,  that must be so hard having  young children as well. I don't know how people cope with the feeling of injustice and loss it is  just so overwhelming how do you find the strength to pull through . 

 In time mate people will do that they won't want to talk as much as they need to protect themselves that's why it's very important for you to come in a place like this because people do wanna talk about their partners people understand! I enjoy listening to you about what you say about your loved one it's probably exactly the same as how I feel about mine If I'm honest I miss silly things like hiding behind the door watching I have a shower peeking in obviously she knew I was there but didn't care! Crazy stuff like what underwear she would choose there's only a few people you can talk about that too

Yes I am sure we all did what people would say are silly things but when you do them they are quirky and fun  it just so upsetting that when you realise they are no more and that relationship is over and whatever you do it will never come back. I am going to have no one staying with me for a while I think I need to grieve on my own I have not been alone since my partner passed away and I feel i need my own time with my own thoughts to get ready for the awful time next week of her funeral which after her passing  is going to be the hardest day of my life. And I have no idea why people say it will get easier after the funeral do they think I am going to forget the person who for 23yrs has been next to me every day and supported through everything. 

Hi mate how are you today? Just thought I'd check in to say hi

Not so good first day alone in the flat since I lost her. Went out for a drive and just started shouting thought if I shouted louder for her she would hear me . Just think when she was here did I really appreciate everything she done for me did I forget to tell her things that would have made her feel better now I will never get to tell , I keep talking to her maybe she can still hear me just maybe she is still here. Enough its not all about me how are you today? 

 I'm the same emotions up-anddown mostly down! I've lost my best friend my lover mummy everything I am getting through the days I talk to her all the time I'm sure she can hear life is just not the same but somehow we have to move forward! I understand what you're saying about did you say that to them did you tell him how much you love them did you tell them how much you appreciate everything they do I always told my wife I love her What did I ever realise how muchshe did with the children while I was at work not a chance she was just so good and I really really want her back but it's never going to happen

Bad day today 1 week today when I lost the love of my life. Think I sunk lower today then I have ever been just keep asking her questions hopefully one day she will answer me back.

 It's going to get harder each day mate I'm not gonna lie  You're just at the start  i'm only two months in front but honestly feel just the same as you you can't give up one day at a time

Thanks for being honest I am fed up with people who keep saying it will get easier in time.

I get that to mate  I've had a hard day it's silly things like putting my little boy in the bath Getting him dry all the things we used to do together why do my children have to suffer with all of this let alone myself what have we ever done so wrong what is my wife have I done so wrong! I guess one day I'll stop asking that question because I'm never gonna find out the truth all you Gotta do is keep thinking she can hear you and talk to her

Sorry you had a hard day seems every day is hard,  think it will be for a very long time  in fact I can't see when it will ever get easier i don't see how it can when you lose someone so special there will never be anything that can replace what you have lost.  I am still waiting for a sign so I know she is with me I think she is sometimes I have an overwhelming feeling of her presence i like to think she is checking up on me .

Sorry you had a hard day seems every day is hard,  think it will be for a very long time  in fact I can't see when it will ever get easier i don't see how it can when you lose someone so special there will never be anything that can replace what you have lost.  I am still waiting for a sign so I know she is with me I think she is sometimes I have an overwhelming feeling of her presence i like to think she is checking up on me .

Hi mate  it's a very slow process it really is just a matter of one day at a time trying to get through it ! Losing that special person in your life is horrible especially at a young age? I really wish this wasn't happening and it was just some bad dream but obviously it's not it's real life which sucks I get to keep my life but my wife had to die so unfair I hate cancer so much

in time you will get signs Maybe the electrics are flickering your house lights to go on and off your Fanny to go crazy that happened to me my phone was going crazy had pictures on from about four years ago right at the top of my memory screen how did that happen? We also see a little white feathers falling sometimes right on top of us! Eventually I'll get the visitation dreams i've had to the first one she was talking telling me everything is all okay that's all love me forever and those that I love her and she will always be with us! Then the second time she was just like a picture look absolutely gorgeous in pain no cancer nothing All that was ever so comforting I hope to get more!! But obviously what I really want I can never have again until it's my time then I will be able to see you again for ever  

How you today hope your ok  x

Hi mate not to good today but don't know what i expect starting to worry about the funeral next week hope I can do her proud and do everything she would of wanted panicking that I let her down.  Even tried to ring her today Don't know what is going on in my head life is so cruel . How you doing today.

The funeral will be perfect for her I'm sure!I was like that today I left my phone at home went to mum and dads soon as I realised I've left my phone at home I was like I've got I'm gonna get loads of missed calls from the wife how crazy is that? Like you say it's also cruel! 
my wife was cremated back in January and I've got her ashes at home on the table if she does want to go to the local cemetery is what she told me before she died and I've been sorting out a headstone for her which is going okay I just didn't think I'd have to be doing this not least for another 40 years

some reason I can't find you on private messaging can you try and find me ?

Hi mate

I'm not to good at that sort of stuff but my sister is coming up tomorrow I will get her to look to see if she can find you.

 I'm here with you mate  hope your ok we can do this 

Good to no mate. We have to get through this as hard as it is I know my partner would not want me to give up so I have to keep strong for her memory but sometimes i just don't know if I can, I had to walk past the funeral directors today where her body is and I just had to turn round I could not even bring myself to walk past I just felt like my heart had been ripped out. I can't believe two weeks ago I had my last conversation with her before macmillian sedated her on the Saturday because the pain was so unbearable for her. Today has been a bad day but I don't suppose I have to tell you that every day is a bad day when you have lost the love of your life.

Hello mate hope you are doing ok unbelievably my partners dad  died on Saturday just don't know what's happening 

Omg how did what happen? I hope your ok i'm a mess today got to do the school run today which is really hard seeing all the other families together 

He had been ill so no great shock don't think he could cope with losing his daughter think that was just the final straw.  Yes today has been bad I just don't know how to cope with the funeral on Wednesday I keep breaking down .  yes must be hard seeing other families just don't know what to say don't think there is anything to say apart from just keep on going just try to get through day by day  Take care