Hi mate I'm sorry for your loss I know exactly what you're feeling why did it have to be her why did she get cancer in the first place why God can you save her! I Lost my wife to breast cancer on 22nd of December last year she was 39 she left me a nine-year-old in a beautiful two-year-old which is a bit of a struggle! Before she died I promised her to look after the children because she knew all I really want to do was go with her But I know she wants me to live my life the best I can! How hard is that they when you've lost your soulmate your best friend your everything your love her words can't describe how much I hate cancer every day I wish my wife was here! I have found comfort in the dreams I get and hide and white feathers everywhere on the ground looks like signs that she is okay but all you really want is the person you love back to the way they were  I'm here if you wanna talk 

Hi chris2020, thank you for replying to my message, like I said in the last post, I dont even know what I'm looking for here, I just can't comprehend what happened, she was only diagnosed last October after suffering with a bad back, I packed in work to look after her and we survived by whatever means, she was so positive and brave the whole time and watching her deteriorate so quickly just destroys reality, I have to carry on for our boys and pretend to be ok  but in truth I dont really want to be here anymore and I dont ever want to get over her  i want to be miserable for the rest of my days that's how i feel at the moment 

Hi mate thanks forgetting back to me I know exactly how you're feeling all I would say is You don't need to pretend it for your kids I cry all the time in front of them and they cry back and then we try and move forward together. I know exactly what you're saying about not wanting to move on and stay like this because he loved her so much she misses things that she used to do even all the fun stuff in the bedroom! It's okay to feel like that I feel like that too It's been about 9 weeks Since my wife died honestly say it's been the hardest nine weeks of my life I miss everything about her the perfect figure literally everything But I remember how she thought for her life and almost made me promise to live my life and look after the boysThat's what I'm focusing on at the moment  

Hi mate thanks forgetting back to me I know exactly how you're feeling all I would say is You don't need to pretend it for your kids I cry all the time in front of them and they cry back and then we try and move forward together. I know exactly what you're saying about not wanting to move on and stay like this because he loved her so much she misses things that she used to do even all the fun stuff in the bedroom! It's okay to feel like that I feel like that too It's been about 9 weeks Since my wife died honestly say it's been the hardest nine weeks of my life I miss everything about her the perfect figure literally everything But I remember how she thought for her life and almost made me promise to live my life and look after the boysThat's what I'm focusing on at the moment