I lost my husband Dave 2nd February 2021, after 14 months of battling stage 4 bowel cancer! Initial we were told it was curable, and then in July we were told treatments were not working and we had 2-3 years! 7 months later he's gone! He fought such a hard battle and I am so proud of him for that, and even though we knew what would happen, I just thought I had more time with him. I am struggling to get out of bed most days. I do get dressed and go out when I have to, but if I have nowhere to go I stay in bed, I know he wouldn't want me to do that but I can't help him I want the world to stop! We have grown up children and a 1 year old grandson, but I can't bring myself round for them. Dave and I had an amazing marriage we were so close, we did argue but never anything major, and he was my go to for advise and to tell me if I was wrong about something. I just want to be with him but I know the kids need me! I just can't see how I am going to be able to carry on like normal without him. I need him so much. The funeral is the end of feb so it has been 3 weeks wait so I go to see him at the funeral parlour as I can't bear the thought of him being on his own there. I trimmed his beard for him as he was proud of it and the fact that he did t lose it made him so happy. How can I go on without him?
